this is me, at roughly 3 years old, hiking the grand canyon with my dad.  i peed myself and had to wear a sweatshirt as shorts.  my dad is holding my shame in his left hand.  do i look bothered?  not in the least!  just need to figure out how to channel that spunk and i-don’t-give-a-f*ck attitude into my adult life. working on that…. now, would you like to hear a little bit about what’s going on behind the scenes here at a house in the hills?

- two nights ago in the pitch dark i reached down to turn on the fan we keep on the floor beside our dresser and slammed my face into one of the drawers (that i had neglected to close…a bad habit of mine).  my lip was split open on the inside and there were a lot of tears.  ok, violent sobbing. i was convinced it was really bad and would need stitches, but lou talked me down off the ledge and by morning it was nearly invisible.  i hate when i have an injury that hurts worse than it looks, it makes it so difficult to garner a satisfiable level of sympathy.

- in the middle of the work day yesterday i took a break- and proceeded to take down 3/4 of a pint of {vegan} chocolate peanut butter ice cream.  i spent the rest of the day feeling nauseous and ashamed of myself.

- bean, dog genius, is plagued with anxiety lately (probably my fault since being plagued by anxiety is what i do best) she is now waking us up at 5 am pacing around the room.  that’s been fun.  even more fun: the mom guilt i’m experiencing over it.  ugh.

- one of the things going i posted about here, well it fell through. and even though i know it wasn’t meant to be for a variety of reasons, it still stung a bit. rejection is the pits.

- i haven’t cooked us a proper dinner in well over a week.  and we spent our four year anniversary eating takeout on our living room floor. we also saw a movie that i do not recommend you see, under any circumstances (what to expect when you’re expecting).  are you supposed to celebrate your dating anniversary after you’re married?  is eating takeout on the floor what the rest of you are doing on these occasions? 

- lately i’ve been feeling guilty that i’m not doing enough. my attention right now is divided in so many ways that i feel like i’m just being sucky at everything and great at nothing.  and i can’t seem to focus. i sit at my desk and before i know it hours have passed and i feel like i haven’t accomplished anything! please please please tell me this happens to you too.

ok, so i’ve noticed this is turning into a one-woman pity party, it’s time to wrap it up!  are you having a weird week?  or an amazing week?  please share.