Hi friends! It’s been a bit since I’ve showed my belly around here, so I figured it’s time to pop in with an update! I’m officially in my third trimester (hip hip!) and the realness of our new family member is definitely setting in. I can’t wait to meet him!!! It’s amazing feeling his movements, wondering what he’ll look like, what his personality will be like, WHO he is and who he will become! It’s a magical time in that way, there is so much anticipation and excitement. There’s so much goodness to look forward to, sometimes I wish time would just fly by! But then I try to remind myself of the sweetness that is in this time, and to just stay present and enjoy it. Inner battles commence.
I have friends who LOVE being pregnant, and I envy them. And I have friends who truly suffer through pregnancy, and I feel lucky that I’m not in the same boat. I think I’m somewhere in the middle. I was so exhausted for the first 5 months of my pregnancy, but for some reason I didn’t even realize that I was extra tired from the pregnancy, it just felt like my new (non-functional) normal. It wasn’t until the fog started to lift that I even realized I’d been in one. I also had a difficult time with my digestion, but that eventually sorted itself out with the help of the GAPS diet and more so my letting go of needing to eat perfectly for the baby (I think the stress of trying to eat perfectly was actually causing my digestion to go off kilter, which is a reminder of how powerful our minds can be!)
For the past couple of months I’ve had my energy back but a slew of other pregnancy side effects- allergies and leg cramps being the worst of them. Those are the worst because they keep me from sleeping through the night and have caused more bouts of insomnia than I’d care to think about, but in the big scheme of things I know it’s not even that bad. Women are my heroes for what we go through to keep humanity going!
It’s been an adjustment gaining weight and watching my body transform into one I barely recognize. There’s nothing that can prepare you for it. I feel enormous and since most days I can’t be bothered to put makeup on or do my hair, I feel frumpy on top of it. But Lou tells me how beautiful he thinks I look and I try my hardest to see myself through his eyes. I managed to do both hair and makeup for these photos, just for the record (VICTORY!) I realized in doing so how much better I felt about myself so I’m going to make my best effort to get myself together a bit more often. I see photos of glamorous pregnant women all over the media and I wonder if I’m missing something. It feels hard enough to take care of everything I need to (work, exercise, eating right, maintaining relationships, midwife appointments, getting much needed rest, etc), adding a glamour routine into the mix doesn’t seem possible. Pregnant mamas that appear to be doing it all, HOW???!? Tell me your secrets!!! I suppose this is a precursor for what’s to come once baby boy arrives and I start feeling like other moms have it more together than I do, which I imagine is a common feeling in this world where social media gives us these peeks into each other’s lives. There are so many moms I admire who seem to be juggling everything so well, I wonder if I will be able to do it too?
More random pregnancy musings and details below, if you’re interested! xx- Sarah
The strangest pregnancy side effect I’ve experienced is that I no longer need to wash my hair. Has anyone else experienced this? I can go for more days than I’ll even admit without so much as getting my bangs wet and still- no grease, so odor, no real difference from my 2 day old hair. IT’S CRAZY AWESOME!
I had cravings during my first trimester, but they stopped and food is just food again. I kind of miss the intensity of my passion for eats during the first trimester. HA!
Our midwife checks my weight at our monthly appointments but I haven’t looked the entire time- I thought it might cause undue stress to think about numbers on a scale EVEN THOUGH I totally believe those numbers are dumb. In spite of this I kind of can’t wait to see my records (after baby arrives). I have a feeling I’m gaining more than the recommended amount but I also think the recommended amount seems so arbitrary since we’re all so different and our babies are all so different. It will be interesting to look over everything after the fact and see how things went!
Speaking of size, Lou’s mom swears he was a 12 pound baby. This terrifies me.
I’ve been taking an at home hypnobabies course to prepare for the birth. The positive pregnancy affirmations are my favorite. Has anyone else done hypnobabies??
I didn’t wear nail polish for my entire first and second trimester in an effort to keep my system as free and clear from chemicals as possible (I also avoided almost all beauty products that aren’t 100% natural). When I painted my nails this past week, I felt like a new person!!!! Sometimes it really is the little things….
We’re telling our friends and family the name we picked out at our baby shower on Saturday! In the beginning we bounced name ideas around with friends but that proved to make things difficult for us, as opinions or random comments turned us against names we had formerly loved. At that point we started keeping quiet about potential names and when we landed on the one we ultimately chose I became very protective of it! Can’t wait to share soon!!! PS- did anyone else struggle with coming up with boy names? We were all set with a bunch of girl names but had such a hard time picking a name for our boy. If we had another I don’t know what we would do. I’m totally out of ideas and there was really only this one name that stuck with us!
I’ve felt a tremendous shift already in our priorities with the impending weight of parenthood and what that means for our family and future. It is crazy how big an impact on your life having a baby is- and he’s not even here yet. We are reevaluating everything- where we live, how we live, what our hopes and dreams for the future are. It’s a whole new world.